December 5, 2025

Friday

Bisbee, Arizona

I returned from England to Phoenix on November 16th after a five night stay with Carl due to Norse Atlantic cancelling my flight on November 11th.

I stayed with Ross and Kate for a few nights in Scottsdale. Then, I came to Bisbee to renew my affair with Cannabis. And, I slept. Half of the day, every day.

The solitude is palpable. Existential. Invited and Enjoyed. I had spent a year planning the trip from which I returned. I met a nice man in England with whom I spent almost every day of seven weeks. Happily. Happier than being a tour guide or medical interpreter in France which I had done the previous month.

I was or am tired. So, I rest. My journey that started in July of 2024 became more of a spiritual quest than I had ever anticipated. I thought it was about the beautiful places that I would get to see. I had anticipated the opportunity to practice speaking French.

I started painting watercolors and sketching architectural type buildings. Sometimes, I blend them. I’ve written seven chapters but can’t seem to get beck to writing the novel.

I am taking a respite month. I rented a house for $800 about four miles north of Mexico. It’s called Bisbee. Mayberry on Acid is what the bumper sticker says.

I didn’t want to pet sit. I need to recollect and reassess what I need to own and what I need to release.

The upshot of my progress is that I’ve discovered a lot of what I consider spiritual or sacred in my human. I cannot have faith that there is a single deity running this show. I do believe that Jesus was a happening dude. I cannot have faith that he was crucified and rose from the dead. I do have faith that his words are there to inspire. So, I am left with the Holy Ghost. Or, my holy spirit as I refer to her. I believe that she alive and inside of every living being. She is ready to be nurtured and come alive with dance but knows she travels a world where that is not always desired. Instead, I traveling with her her. And, looking for her. I want to be with the Holy Spirit wherever I can find her or bring her.